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2016-07-30 10:59 am

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when people you thought knew better or at least had more common sense to not throw a hissy fit over Bernie not being the Dem candidate like and post tweets about #JillNotHil when there is literally no precedent and no chance for a third party to get any kind of headway and you just want to scream soundlessly into the void
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2016-07-05 11:03 pm

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it has been two or three years since my last alcohol induced mental breakdown so I was long overdue for one when we bought a hotel room two weekends ago for one of my best friends' 24th birthday party. my brother told me I ended up a crying mess on the bathroom floor (which I remember up to a point) talking about how much I wanted to die in between spells of throwing up, which I genuinely do not recall. I ended up sleeping on the hotel room floor and woke up feeling terrible, so I think that was genuinely the first time I was hungover.

it seems to be outside my range of articulation to actually talk about my emotional problems unless I am drunk at which point everything seems to spill over at once. It isn't healthy for me to repress things and you'd think I'd come to terms with that at my age but a part of me just refuses to ever discuss my issues with anyone, and even when I do, not the full extent that I should. I guess it's still just a learning process.
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2016-07-05 10:35 pm

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So far while playing Overwatch I've gotten play of the game twice!  It excites me because I'm not quite competent at the game yet and seeing the hard work recognized is kinda nice! 

Zenyatta gets play of the game

Winston gets play of the game.
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2016-06-14 01:14 am

i am just. i am just completely, utterly crushed by the RE7 trailer.

 a small bit of me is hoping that this little "First Hour" teaser trailer or what the hell ever prologue nonsense it is is just that, a prologue, and the enitre game won't be like that. but it's not RE, to me, at all. if these are the "roots" the series is going back to, these are roots the series never fucking had.
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2016-06-06 10:19 am

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TO CELEBRATE THE ANNOUNCEMENT OF FXII HD FINAL FANTASY XII: THE ZODIAC AGE I AM SHARING MY FAVORITE PIECE OF BALTHIER/FRAN ART
Balthier and Fran in bed together
I LOVE IT AND I LOVE FINAL FANTASY XII AND I LOVE BALTHIER/FRAN OK BYE

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2016-05-26 06:01 pm

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Anyways, I saw this utterly fucking cute art that Krist reblogged of the Fallout 4 companions and it is so good and I. LOVE. CURIE.

Art of the companions from Fallout 4 by momo-deary.
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2016-05-26 05:51 pm

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 my email is set up to get job alerts from several non profit companies or museums from Indeed, and they keep reminding me of having to turn down the job with the Speed Art Museum in Louisville and now, I really, really think that I should've just done it and sacrificed whatever personal happiness it would've cost me relocating there again and living on my own removed from my family and friends, because I just feel so antsy and stifled like I'm going nowhere. This isn't where I pictured myself , but a part of me growing up and maturing always worried that this sense of absolutely no fucking clue what I am doing or where I want to be and having no concrete goal that this is exactly how I'd end up lol 
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2016-05-19 09:53 pm

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 I love learning about flower language and sentiments, this is one of my favorite web pages to visit on the internet, and it's also kinda neat to help spur for writing prompts!
http://www.languageofflowers.com/flowermeaning.htm
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2016-05-05 07:19 pm
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old selfies!

These are selfies I took when I had my job interviews for positions in Louisville near the end of February, I had two that day. I just really like how these turned out.


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2016-05-05 06:48 pm

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lately I have been reading "American Rose- A Nation Laid Bare: The Life and Times of Gypsy Rose Lee."

Book cover to American Rose- A Nation Laid Bare: The Life and Times of Gypsy Rose Lee

and i have loved all of Karen Abbott's other books, one I recommend if you are into historical women, Civil War, and espionage is "Liar, Temptress, Soldier, Spy"




and Karen used this quote as in introduction to Chapter 15, and it just really struck me, from Dorothy Parker.

"By the time you swear you're his, shivering and sighing, and he vows his passion is infinite and undying- Lady, make a note of this: one of you is lying."
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2016-04-28 07:25 pm

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the Speed Art Museum in Louisville, KY, whose job offer I had to turn down last month, is hiring for the same position again

Miles "Tails" Prower crying
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2016-04-20 02:50 pm

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so the bank I am employed at and currently sitting behind my teller window at has neither AO3 or dreamwidth blocked on through their internet. this does not bode well for my free time, though I justify to myself that when I am not with customers and my drawer is in balance and I'm not fielding obnoxious phone calls that we have a little leeway in what we can do with our downtime
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2016-04-20 01:16 am

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 Still really hoping for a Dragons Dogma Online release date here in the West even though it is probably a vain hope.  :(
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2016-04-19 09:04 pm

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 i finished the first chapter of this thing!!! 

i have been nursing this idea ever sinc RE6 came out and me being me, wanting to know what Rebecca might be possibly doing, that spiraled into Rebecca meeting most of the cast of RE6 after the epilogue, and then that spiraled into somehow finding Piers alive but heavily fucked up and that spiraled into me shipping Sherry/Jake/Piers, so, this is a mess. and so I imagined this scenario. I've been working on this for months and I  know the big, emotional, climactic parts I want to get to, and I just want to write those so bad. But I feel like all I've been writing is build up to it. Anyway.  I just wanted to fucking be DONE with this first chapter and post it already, and that probably shows, but this is the most fulfilling indulgent fanfiction thing I've written in such a long time.
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2016-04-10 07:05 pm

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I like to keep up with a lot of my favorite fanartists that I can on different social media, and one of my favorite Resident Evil fanartists, sardine, posted this to their twitter account and I LOVE IT


Chris Redfield and Jill Valentine, in workout clothes, high five, BSAA towels draped over their shoulders
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2016-04-01 12:34 am
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"I don't have Jake/Sherry feelings"

Me, telling myself a big fucking lie
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2016-03-30 07:38 pm

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So after three weeks of feeling pretty settled in at the bank, I get an email from the Discovery Park of America about my resume asking if I would be interested in a possible part time (28 hours) docent position. This is the kind of work I want more experience in and it's not much further a commute, really, than my job in Murray at JCPenney's and when I have to travel around to different branches for the bank. But I also hate that it comes up right as I am getting used to working as a bank teller. I emailed her and told her that I would love to interview, so that's a first step at least.
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2016-03-21 10:37 pm

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Also one of my favorite Sonic fanartists, lenmue, Drew this really cute Sonic/Zootopia crossover fanart, which I just thought was really cute. How many times can I use cute in a post?


Zootopia, Miles Tails Prower,  Cream the Rabbit

Shadow the Hedgehog is dressed as one of the polar bear enforcers from Zootopia,  with a miniature Eggman playing the role of Mr. Big.

Cream the Rabbit,  dressed as Judy Hopps,  follows Miles Tails Prower,  dressed as Nick Wylde,  through a crowd.  Tails has a flippant expression on his face as he trails behind Sonic the Hedgehog,  who is wearing glasses,  a sweater vest,  and headphones.