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On sadder news, my laptop seems to have taken its last, shuddering, long overdue breath. I've had it for... 7 years... And for the two the monitor has not been displaying on the screen itself and so I had to use an old CPU and plug it in. And now today it stopped displaying after starting g up unless I put it in safe mode. And it did actually have a blue screen of death earlier as well. So I'm typing this on mobile! This thing lasted me senior year of high school, all through college and even some after, so it's high past time I put it out to pasture.
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I really was in the mood for something cute and cheerful and Zootopia fulfilled that need IMMENSELY.
Also, there are comparisons going around on Tumblr comparing Judy Hopps and Nick Wylde to Rebecca Chambers and Billy Coen from RE0, which made me smile because, OTP, but after seeing the film, it was surprising to see they are actually quite similar and it's pretty cutely referential! It was a good time and watching a film that was so vibrant, heartwarming, and cheerful was really good. And Shakira's song was catchy too!
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I would like to share this picture of the Gadgeteer Moogle from Final Fantasy Tactics Advance. It makes me happy.
Gadgeteer Moogle,  a job class available in Final Fantasy Tactics Advance
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I start my actual teller shadowing next week after one more day of orientation. I feel confident but am also very nervous. And a small part of me still thinks I should have said fuck it, go with the Louisville job/interview further with the Derby Museum, who cares, but I'm trying to silence that part. I want to do what's good for me, right now. And I just don''t think, weighing all the pros and cons, that would have been good for me. My day off in the next two weeks will be the 21st so I hope I'll just be too tired to think about it and can push it from my mind.
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"Captain Daddy Wesker" are three words I had to read in succession today. Three uninterrupted, consecutive words, a terrible weight born by my own two eyes
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My copy of Biohazard the Stage has shipped!! Now, the wait begins. I can't even put into words how happy I was about this dumb stage play bc it was the fact that Rebecca finally got to come back, and in few weeks time I will get to watch it for myself.
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i've been trying to use a guide to help me out as i play the game, it was one of the titles i bought when i bought my PS4! a lot of sites i've searched indicate that the Cleric Beast is the first boss you encounter, which gives you insight so The Doll will awaken and help you level up. but i. encountered Father Gascoigne first. and have lost to him both times, losing 4000-5000 blood echoes each time. ;n; i might not have chosen the ideal build for a first time player, Troubled Childhood (i liked the idea of extra stamina for dodging/combos)

And my tax refund came through so I decided to treat myself to a few games I wanted to try and bought The Evil Within and Murdered Soul Suspect with a coupon. Naturally, I died at the first enemy in The Evil Within when you escape from the hanging trap as I was unable to successfully sneak away from him.
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possible spoilers for those who have not played the game or gotten the chance to watch a playthrough. mainly i wanted to share my favorite bit of dialogue in the game so far, a scene that really touched me emotionally







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Also this evening my dad said "I like Trump because he says what he thinks" and this is it, this the point where I am ready to be put into my grave,

(my dad is the type of man to say the n-word but it's ok! he has a black friend!)
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On more happy news I would like to say that I am over the moon that RE5 and RE6 are coming to PS4 and XBOX One. I look forward to finally playing with my friends that have the Playstation version as for so long I just had Xbox360! RE6 may be a polarizing mess of a game but it's MY MESS. I've bought RE5 three times already because the hours I spent playing mercenaries scratched the disc beyond recognition. what is a fourth
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February has been such a whirlwind month of an emotional roller coaster. I applied for a whole lot of different jobs as January ended and February began because typically, my hours at work are now averaging about 20 to 25 if I'm very lucky. Last week I worked three days. Several different museums located in Louisville were hiring for a variety of positions (The Frazier History Museum, The Speed Art Museum on the University of Louisville's campus, and The Kentucky Derby Museum) and I also applied to several positions close to home. and, well, I suppose this is what I get for having a marathon job application session.

I got my slew of email rejections from the Frazier for every position, whether it was as exhibits manager or applying as a damn housekeeper. Stillwater Music in Nashville asked me about my internship experience even though I didn't qualify their requirements for a junior archivist.

My first email was with the staff of the Speed Art Museum. I had a phone interview on a Wednesday, and then the next Friday I had an in person interview with the Guest Services Manager/Volunteer Coordinator. It was primarily customer service type of work, but seeing as it was in a museum environment I was more than fine with that. Of course, I got offered the job last week and I had to turn it down because it was part time at only 16-20 hours a week, even with the place I lived in for my internship, I could not afford to relocate on that few hours.

At this same time i had applied for two seperate postings with the Kentucky Derby Museum, one as an inventory/control stock associate and the other as a customer service lead with their gift shop. More sales. more retail. not at all in the actual museum/historical part of the company, but a foot in the door is a foot in the door right? But one was again, part time, but even less money than I'm making at Penney's at only 8 an hour so I told her after considering all the factors and the wage, I could not afford relocation should the offer be extended so I politely declined the in person interview as I did not want her to go to the trouble. For the customer service lead position, I had two phone interviews and the retail manager was incredibly nice. But the cons of it were that this was sales, sales, sales. entirely sales. it was full time and had vacation and benefits and its a year until i am cut loose from my parent's insurance. but if wanted to work retail- which i have been for two years now- i can do that without relocating while saving up until i can afford to move.

and this is all on top of me accepting a job offer from Dollar General (as many hours as i could get, started at min wage of 7.25, but fifteen minutes from my house) and my first day was supposed to be this Monday, but then I had an interview this past Tuesday with First National Bank and was offered the job two and half hours after the interview. I start as a part time teller, 9.75 an hour with a cap of 30 hours, March the 8th. I've had seven interviews this past month and I just feel ragged.

I still feel like I've really screwed myself out of a good opportunity. I keep gauging my successes against those of friends I graduated with and seeing them do well compared to where I've been makes me feel inadequate. After two years of applying and applying and trying and failing and failing over and over again with no set path or end point in sight, I don't feel like I'm in a position to turn down anything in my field, do I have that luxury? And I feel like "well if I turn this down what fucking opportunity do I have left" and my family doesn't understand when I try to articulate it.

Screw the idea that my living in Louisville made me absolutely MISERABLE and homesick while I wasn't interning, this is what I want, right? :*) Maybe working two jobs again will just leave me too brain dead and exhausted to worry about it.
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trying to get a feel of dreamwidth, this seems like a nice, private space to enjoy yourself and your interests with others. I want to try to use this more for fandom stuff than tumblr because I grow tired of its environment. probably shouting to the void with this, but that's all I do in the first place anyway.
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